We met briefly at the Graduation ceremony of my younger brother. He was vivacious, handsome, too rugged and mannish for his age. I couldn’t help noticing him every time he moved. I reminded myself reluctantly that I must be at least 3 years older to him but the law of attraction works on its own principle whether you say yes or no, it will still bring the object of your attention to you, no matter what.
So it happened, we were seated beside each other for a 4 hours long ceremony. He greeted me warmly. I returned it with my best smile. The deep tone of his voice stayed with me for a long time. He kept making me laugh as we heard the graduation speeches.
That night I got a Facebook friend request from him which I gladly accepted. We kept chatting almost every waking hour. Soon we exchanged personal numbers. I am learning a lot of things about him. He is a commercial airline pilot, separated and single, lives with his dog. He hates pans and pots and mostly eats out. He knows all my timings by now and we both keep waiting for each other’s notifications. I have set up a unique tone for his messages and like Pavlov’s conditioned pups, I get all thrilled when I hear the chimes.
I am mesmerized and dreamy all day. We have our common songs and movies playlist which is getting romantic by the day. He says all that I always wanted to hear. He loves all those things I am interested in. He fits in perfectly and accepts my chaotic lifestyle even though he is very disciplined he still loves to be with me. He has occupied a major part of my mind.
He has become the reason I smile and it was his birthday last Sunday, he lives in southern part of America and I wanted to celebrate it online and let him know that despite the limitations of the cyberspace we still can touch each other deeply.
So, I baked a small cake, blew the red love candle with a wish of ‘forever’ if something like ‘forever’ exists. I celebrated his birthday with him besides I had gifts which we opened together virtually. We uncorked our bottles of Sauvignon Blanc and opened the pizza boxes together and spent some good time listening to and sometimes just looking at each other through the screen. I’ve come to like the online dating thing and I am so glad we live in this world where we can reach out to our loved ones anytime but when the moment of signing off came, I felt a lump in my throat and I was shocked to see when his eyes welled up too. I kept the phone down and cried to my heart’s content. I was with him and yet without him.
For the first time, I felt a strong need to slip my hands into his, with our fingers entangled. I yearned for a hug and wanted to rest my head on his shoulders and watch the sun disappear in the horizon. I wanted to feel him suddenly, may be the wine was playing on with my thoughts, but instead my hands barely swiped across the screen of my phone, I was zooming in on his picture just before I heard the chime and my phone came alive again.